thoughts[uncesored]

Discipline, I need it.

If I’m experiencing a low in my life, this has to be one of them. Everyday I feel useless, I know I am in a position that holds me back but I can’t make that as an excuse. I have to do what I gotta do. I hate just moping around and having people feel sorry for me. Sometimes it’s good to have that support but at the end of the day I realized that it’s me that has to change things. I seriously have to stop procrastinating. The world can’t wait for me. I simply have to take advantage of the opportunities that I got.

Appreciate more things.

One thing I will never do is be bitter about my past relationships or even the people that I just come across too. Whether or not you were official or were just “talking”, there was a reason you fell in love/like that person. I just see everyone hating and shit. Yes, I understand but damn you gotta move on sometime right?

I’m sick of seeing happinnes from other people’s point of view. I need to start looking at my own definition of happinness. I need to not take things for granted. I just need to flow with everything.

It’s crazy. I was blind. I was scared of reality. What is wrong with me. It’s time to restart everything. I fucked up, thats for sure.

live and learn. I really don’t regret the things I have experienced/done.